It’s the last month of the 3rd Quarter of the year. Grabe, ang bilis! Hindi ako makapaniwala, lumipas yung mga araw ng ganun lang?! And yet, we are still on community quarantine until September ends. Hanggang kailan kaya talaga?
Kamusta kayo? July and August were busy months for me. Busy because of anxiety. Lols. Sino ba’ng hindi masyadong nagwoworry these days? We’re still in the battle with the unseen enemy. Everytime my husband will go out, I will count the days and observe if one of us will show any symptom. Praning it is.
Aside from overthinking, ate has started with her class. It keeps me busy trying to stick with the daily schedule from her teacher. Kailangan kasi namin gumawa ng routine to keep her busy. I’m trying my best, believe me, na masunod yung schedule that gives them only an hour for playing. The rest is puro take home activity, lesson review, home work, and open play. Kaso most of the time, puro lang siya open play kasi hindi ko rin masyadong natututukan. Or she finishes her assigned task immediately giving her more extra time. More extra time means PLAY. Minsan, hinahayaan ko na lang din. After all, she’s just a four year old so no pressure.
I am also pushing through with online selling. Naks, business minded! CHAR! On the side lang naman para kahit pano, may small income. It also helps in my anxiety. We’re selling Nacho King products – nacho chips and dips and our best selling Cinnamon Rolls! Check out our page Bon Appetreats to know more.
Ayoown! Na-miss ko magsulat! Ang hirap kasi humanap ng time. Kahit naman nasa bahay lang ako, ang daming gawaing nakapila lalo na sa isip ko. #MentalLoad Lalo na kapag nagsasabay-sabay silang may mga nararamdaman tapos nag-iisa lang ako. Sarap maging octopus! If only.
I hope you guys are doing well. Some of you may also be experiencing anxiety. Kapit lang, besh. Let’s all hope and pray to receive some good news sa huling quarter ng taon.
Finally, let me share this with you. On August, we went back to MECQ. My mom’s BP started going up again as we’re placed in MECQ. Kapag tumataas ang BP ni mama, nagwoworry ako ng sobra. Doon ako natitrigger ng sobrang anxiety kasi nag-aalala ako sa kanya, at the same time attending to my family’s needs. I feel like ako na lang ang naiiwan dito because my siblings are living on their own. Kapag naman nagpapatulong ako sa kanila kahit man lang magbantay kay mama, hindi naman sila nagpapadala ng tulong. Financial, yes. But what I needed sana is someone who could help me monitor her BP kasi nga, I couldn’t do it ALL THE TIME. I have two toddlers. Eto talaga ang pinakanagti-trigger ng anxiety saken. Sleeping at night with worries na baka kinabukasan hindi rin siya magising tulad ng nangyari kay papa. What comforts me is a prayer. Sa mga gabing hindi ako makatulog, isa lang ang sinasabi o kay Lord.
Lord, sa lahat ng worries at takot na nararamdaman ko, please remind me that you are in control. You are the most powerful of all, I lift up everything to you. Kayo na po ang bahala. I trust everything in you. Thank you, Lord.
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