Writing my Heart Out

I honestly forgot about my dream of being a writer.. until I was offered this opportunity.

Back in Elementary days, I used to keep a daily journal where I write the daily events in my life then. From simple pumasok ako sa school to napagalitan ako ni mama, and even napansin ako ni crush, genern.

In high school, I used to write poems. One was even published in our school newspaper making me a contributor. I joined spelling bees and essay writing and poem making contests. May mga nakuha naman akong medals. Sumali din ako sa tagalog version pero.. the rest is history.

I was the editor in chief of our thesis in College. I used to help din in the documentation of hub’s thesis then. Mag-jowa palang kami non.

2011 when I started blogging. It used to be my online diary. Mga happenings sa buhay ko, mga hanash, ganon. It didn’t really make sense at all. Pero wala lang, outlet lang ba.

From blogspot, I switched to wordpress. Tapos as years went on, natuto na ako maging private. Lels. Although I never shared my site’s link. Kaya ko nga naisipan maghanash hanash dun e kasi naiisip ko wala namang magbabasa.

When I became a mom, I created another site for my momny musings. Yung mga ways and means na natutunan ko along the road, shineshare ko don. I am also an active member sa mga mom groups. Kapag feeling ko I have an answer to the question, nagcocomment talaga ako.

To my surprise, I was offered a contributor post for an online magazine. Sobrang grateful ko sa friend ko na ako agad ang naalala to write. I was hesitant at first. Kulang na kulang yung oras ko sa gawaing bahay at sa mga bata, ni hindi ko na nga napapansin yung asawa ko, tatanggap pa ako ng trabaho? On a second thought, hanggang kailan ba ako magpapaka-nanay lang? I was about to prepare myself to get a home-based job when I learned that I was pregnant with Jela. I get too bored and tired from being a full time mom of two. Hinahanap ko na yung identity ko, wala na akong magawa sa buhay. So I said yes. Challenge accepted, bahala na!

Been writing for an online parenting magazine for more than a month now. Hindi biro ah! I write at night kasi that’s the only time I can focus – kapg tulog na ang mga bagets. I only have limited time so I can still have a few hours of sleep kasi mom duty naman during the day. I need to schedule cos I always have to give way to hub’s work, hindi yun pwedeng ma-give up. Most of all, I write full tagalog articles so doble challenge! Hehe. Not that I am not fluent in tagalog pero maybe mas sanay ako sa english, genern. (Oo na, maarte ako!) so far I have published 4 articles na yata and still have a few in line for publishing. Thank you, Lord!

Well, what I’m saying is, I have always loved writing. Getting featured in an article is a simple joy for me. But to see my name as the writer itself of a certain article? It’s just…WOW! Mapapa- thank you Lors ka nalang talaga. I guess I am just overwhelmed. Hindi laging may ganitong opportunity that you enjoy what you do. Ngayon ko lang din naalala na minsan kong binulong na ‘sana makapagpublish din ako ng article’. Nasa bucket list ko padin ang makapagpublish ng libro. Malay natin, no? Wala lang. I get reminded everytime the mister would proudly say that I am writing and we would get a comment na ‘bata pa lang naman yan mahilig na yan magsulat’. I was like, ‘oo nga no?’

Thank you Lord for this opportunity. Ginagalingan ko naman. Kaya sana magtuloy-tuloy lang. Totoo pala yung never stop dreaming. Nagbblog lang ako, letting out the frustrated momfluencer in me. And then this opprotunity came. Diyos ko, Lord! Nag-uumapaw po! Salamat!

I only wanted to share my learnings and experiences through my mom blog and adBONtures account. Hindi talaga mataas yunf confidence level ko to reach the endorsement point e. Pero with this writing stint, I learn more about things Na hindi ko ineexpect na mayroon pa akong hindi alam. And yes, I am also learning about writing – na hindi ka lang basta sulat ng sulat. You need to have a topic na specific and choose your words.

Thank you, Lord! Wala naman akong ibang masabi kung hindi salamat. This may be temporary but at least I’ve fulfilled my dream of being a writer. Pero malay mo ma-promote ako no. Pwede kaya? Haha. Why not. Crossed fingers.

Credits din sa friend ko, kung nababasa mo man to. Haha. Mahal kita, alam mo yan. Salamat na ako ang naalala mo para naman may katuturan yung buhay ko bukod sa pagiging alila sa bahay. Lols.

And syempre, thank you din sa asawa ko for being so supportive. Siguro, baka naiintindihan niya yung pinagdadaanan ko deep inside na wala na akong magawa sa buhay kung hindi maging nanay kaya kung ano nalang ginagawa ko. Lols. Pero seryoso, I was at that point na kinukwestiyon ko na yung self-worth ko with a mixture of self-pity kasi parang wala na talaga akong ibang magawa sa buhay. So going back, thank you for allowing me to accept this job and for being proud of me and my articles. Naks!

So hindi na lang ako basta blogger. Contributor na din ako lels. Watch out for my next articles and guys, friends, mommy friends, if you have time, visit smartparenting.com.ph. Marami kayong matututunan dito! Promise! ❤️

2 thoughts on “Writing my Heart Out

  1. Go Beshy Go!!!! May nakita akong offers sa LinkedIn na contributor din for online magazine. I’ll give it a shot sana kayanin ❤ You're such an inspiration beshy hihi

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